Because I wanted to

I wanted to play the guitar. And so I did. I wanted to study English. And here I am. I wanted to fall in love. And I'm opening new standards of great here. I wanted to started a whole new life. And I did. And it worked. For 2 months I was like the queen of building a whole new world with just my heartbeat and my breath. And then? And then I thought I had run out of my luck. Again 2 months later I realized I didn't. It's still there at my command, ready to work wherever I need it to. It's just that my motivation shows cracks now. I don't know what I want anymore. I could still have it, you see? I just don't know what it is.