Never give up trying

I like to establish rules for many things in life. Rules and patterns and default outcomes. Because every single exception is oh so sweet. I indulge in patterns and formulas because I am aware that this life defies them. It surprises us time and again.

Beyond my career, my family planning, my sexuality, my ambition, my fears, my strengths, my dreams... beyond all that-... if we leave all of this aside for a moment, I am still failing at the one thing my parents want for me.

There is a trust issue here that I am just now learning to appreciate.

I know that this is all bits and pieces. I hope to elaborate on it later on.